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Thursday, September 26, 2013

Wow, it's been a long time... Lots has changed. I've been divorced... Remarried... Worked full time outside of my home... Then got a promotion that allows me to work from home and oh, yeah... Gained 25 pounds. And that, my friends, is why I've returned. I have been making excuses for my weight gain for a very long time... "I still look pretty good" and "It's only a few pounds" have become a regular part of my self talk. And before I knew it, I finally reached the point where neither of those statements were true anymore. I don't really look so good these days. And this is more than just a few pounds. Most of the clothes in my closet no longer fit and I find myself avoiding my own reflection in the mirror. So I'm back. And I'm setting a few goals:    

1-Goal Weight: I'd like to get back down to 150lbs by April 1st 2014. That gives me 6 months. I'm hoping to lose the first 15 pounds during the first 3 months. That's an average of 5 pounds a month, which is, I think, realistic but will definitely take some commitment on my part. So how am I going to get there?

2-Blogging. In looking back at the success I had previously, this blog was a big part of what kept me motivated and helped me to track my success (and failures). I am setting a goal to blog at least three days a week.

3-Exercise. I will exercise for at least 30 minutes 3 days a week. That may seem like a wimpy goal to some, but if you know me, this will be a big deal for me. I hate exercise. Despise it.

4-Clean Eating. This one is still a little gray for me right now. I'm not sure exactly what my food plan will look like and I know I need to pin it down. If Weight Watchers hadn't changed so much, I'd probably just go back to it. But it has. To start with, I'll be having a green smoothie or green juice every morning. I also plan to look back through my blog and start eating some of the things I ate before. This should be a good jumping off point. More to come...   

Wednesday, September 25, 2013

I'm back... And so is my fat...

What happened to me? I was cruising along at a sleek 150... For a long time I maintained that weight with ease... I felt good... And then, almost without realizing it happened, my norm became 155... Which eventually became 163... I certainly didn't love it... But I still felt mostly okay... Because gosh, what's "ten-ish" pounds anyway? And then BAM! 175. Yup. That's what my scale said this morning. It is the highest number I have seen in years. And lying in bed tonight, after a day of cinnamon roll eating and then a jog that I'm sure didn't begin to counter all the calories I counsumed during the day, I came across this photo...

And suddenly I found it. My motivation. Because wow... I remember what it felt like to look like that. I remember how it felt to wake up every day and get dressed in clothes I liked... Not just clothes that fit. And I'm done with making excuses. So I'm back. And that is all. I'll see you all again in the morning... We have lots of catching up to do.

Thursday, June 4, 2009

I'm tired...


... And somehow I don't find myself with much time or energy to blog these days. I also don't have much to say about my fat anymore. At this point the battle is over. The score?

Becky, one. Fat, zero.

Sunday, May 17, 2009

Worst. Blogger. Ever.

... Yup, pretty much I am, I know. Sorry guys... Life has changed for me since I started working and I just don't find myself with much free time anymore...

I still really love my job, although now people actually expect me to DO stuff, rather than just sit around looking cute. I'm a lot better at the sitting around thing but I'm not too bad at actually working either. In general things are going well. My E.D. seems pleased with me for the most part and the more I get to know the other managers, the better I like them all. I feel like I have a much better handle on what's expected of me now and I am officially done with the massive amount of training my position requires.

And now that we've talked about my job... Let's talk about my fat, shall we? Well... nothing has changed. Not even a bit. My weight fluctuates up and down a couple of pounds every week but for the most part I stay right where I've been for the past eight months... And I think it's a good place to be. My healthy weight range is 184lbs-146lbs and at home I pretty much always see 151 on the scale.

I haven't been to a Weight Watchers meeting in over two months, simply because when I have a few free hours I'd rather shop or nap or pick up the house than sit in a meeting. The friend that I've been going with also decided she didn't want to go anymore so that kills it for me. I'll go back if the scale ever heads the wrong direction and I'm not able turn it around on my own... But in the meantime I think I'm doing just fine.

I still have treats dropped on my desk fairly regularly and I still have to deal with a lot of food related events... Fortunately, I'm managing to keep my weight in check. I think I just might be done with the fat girl part of my life. I've been maintaining with very little effort for nearly a year now.

Three years ago I never would have guessed my life would take the turns that is has... Some of the changes have been really painful I've gotta say... But in the end, isn't it the hard stuff that's supposed to give us depth? Well... that's what I keep telling myself, anyway.

Wednesday, May 6, 2009

One of the best comments ever made...

In response to my post below...

Weight Watchers Chic said...

"Doesn't he know that diet coke increases a woman's desire for intimacy? Tell him it is a proven fact (you know they believe anything we tell them) and he will go out and buy 4 more cases tonight. BTW.. on sale at Target for $3 per 12 pack."

Clearly this woman is a rockstar.

Deal or no deal...

Apparently I made a deal with my husband a few months ago... But let me just preface this by saying I totally don't remember doing it... Nope. Not at all. Allegedly, I agreed to give up Diet Coke if he got down to 245. The good news is, he's looking great these days. The bad news is, he actually expects me to follow through on my promise now that he hit the mark... Unfortunately for him, I don't remember ever making that sort of deal so I'm pretty sure that absolves me from any accountability. Right? Am I right?

Thursday, April 30, 2009

I'm back from Atlanta...

...and the 140's are back too... Well, 149.5 is back to be exact, but heck, I'll take it. I had a riot in Atlanta I have to say... Fortunately, the good time was all about who I was with, not what I was eating. My only regret is that I waited until my last day in Atlanta to look for the Coca Cola bottling plant. We drove in circles for about an hour before we gave up to go catch our flights. I did, however, get to go watch the Braves play... This is the only picture I took while I was out of town and I took it from my iphone... I'm just not a camera toting kind of girl.


Anyway, the point is this: Weight gain crisis averted. Now back to the cheeseburgers...